A depressive disorder is not a passing blue mood but rather persistent feelings of sadness and worthlessness and a lack of desire to engage in formerly pleasurable activities. A complex mind/body illness, depression can be treated with drugs and/or therapy.[Pshychology Today]
My Psychiatrist applied the Beck Depression Inventory test to me, where a count of 0-3 indicates no depression, 4 – 7 light depression, 8 – 15 moderate depression and over 16 serious depression. Guess where I scored? Well above 16! And in addition to that I internalized my aggression.
This is a serious condition that impacted every area of my life. Socially I withdrew and would rather read a book on my cellphone than talk to people, in my relationship with my husband the same thing happened. In my work I felt like I had no time to do any of the work, and if I had time I found excuses not to do any work, like I’m tired. That is another thing, being tired all the time.
One of the side effects of depression and burnout is that we take it out on our bodies. In my case, as I think with many of you also, I used food. It became my comfort and initially made me feel good. Until…
Nothing in my closest looked good on me. My pinterest search turned to the ‘fuller figure’ styles. I started fearing cameras – never appearing in any photos. I started wearing a lot of black… It’s slimming you know. I did not spend a cent on myself.
That’s why one of my priorities became my body. I set specific goals. In my posts I am discussing the process of my transformation. I post the before and after photos. I discuss the different treatment options, trading methods and eating habits and I will show you my motivation boards.
4 Things I did to help in my depression treatment.
- Exercise – I started with two days a week for three months, then increased to three days, I might add another day for the next three months. It seems to release chemicals that immediately make you feel better.
- Eating right – by reducing my carbohydrate intake and eating more fresh fruits and vegetables as well as lean meat my serotonin levels have been boosted. This is the Happiness hormone that also gets released during exercise .
- Get physical treatments – a massage would work best, but I also went for i lipo treatments that had me isolated with no interference for at least two hours a week. I guess that can also fall under meditation if you want to.
- Find purpose – this blog! I knew that I was not being appreciated at my work by the learners, and changing schools would not necessarily change that, so I started two blogs, one for school related issues like my Teaching portfolio and this one on a more personal level. Both make me smile almost every day!
Maybe someone out there has some suggestions on how I can improve even more. I would love to hear from you!